Tuesday, August 11, 2009

My Husband

Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away... Song of Solomon 8:7

{My husband, My friend, My love SS 8:7}

{My companion and soulmate}

(These words are engraved in our wedding rings. The actual text in each one was a surprise for us to one another, read only after the wedding ceremony was over.)
While away on our special anniversary trip to the mountains, I had myself a little emotional meltdown the last night we were in our cabin. Here is what I wrote in my journal (I bare my soul here):

"...And just like the OLD days, he held me and listened and wasn't afraid of my (seemingly backwards) feelings. I've not felt like that in a long, long time.

It was weird and comforting at the same time...weird because I didn't WANT to be crying - comforting because BB is the same BB from 11 years ago [1 year of courtship, 10 of married life], only better now - more loving even than back then...the same BB who coaxed me out of my very fear-bound place by listening to me, loving me and by being a safe, trustworthy man.

I remember how God used BB to reveal more of Himself to me, to make me trust Him more....to help me know Him as loving, patient, non-critical, tender.

This side of God's character was not real to me until BB loved me.

So, I ended up cried out, puffy-eyed, and tired. And it was late.

Thank you, God, for my man and for blessing our marriage so that it has only gotten better, stronger, sweeter with time 1999-2009.

And God, I pray Your favor and blessing on our next 10 years, so that our marriage glorifies You, blesses us, our kids, and others, is pure, holy, and strong; is powerful and useful for Your Kingdom. Please give us many, many more years together!"

I'm sharing this, because it's the first time I've come close to putting words to the feelings and thoughts in my heart and mind. These things are why my heart is overwhelmed and my tongue is totally inadequate to express what's inside me...because God in His mercy and kindness has seen fit to bless me with a husband who is so far beyond all I could ask or imagine. It is BB's love for me, not the trip itself, that has me speechless and grateful...so grateful to our heavenly Father for bringing us together, for allowing us the blessing of married love and life together."

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. James 1:17

I give glory and honor to the Lord for His good gifts, for showing me more of Himself through my husband's heart and through the sweet mystery of Christian marriage.


Photo: our wedding bands, taken by BB during our days in the mountains

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